FYI, my memoir, Beautiful Wreck: Sex, Lies & Suicide, will be published this September. Check back in the coming months for news about a book launch party in NYC and appearances around the country!
Here is a summary of the book:
In my darkly humorous and sometimes perverse memoir, Beautiful Wreck: Sex, Lies & Suicide, I chronicle 20 years of misadventures as a transplanted Midwestern lesbian with undiagnosed Tourette Syndrome and Bipolar disorder in turn-of-the-millennium New York City. I detail the psychiatric underworld—first as a staffer at a homeless shelter on Ward’s Island working with mentally ill men and years later as a patient on a locked ward at Jersey City Medical Center. The fifteen-plus years in between are the substance of my book, a raw account of my life both marred and informed by mental illness.
After arriving in Manhattan at age 25, I was swept up in the zeitgeist of the Big Apple: Living on the Lower East Side during the Tompkin’s Square riots; attending law school during the OJ Simpson trial; co-parenting a child I never wanted in the early days of the “gayby” boom; and subletting a Tribeca loft when Robert DeNiro’s neighborhood was still affordable. I maneuvered my way through the urban jungle, climbed up and down the corporate ladder, stumbled though the Manhattan real estate racket, fell in and out of love affairs, and skirted incarceration in loony bins.
Rushing manically through my 20s and 30s, delving into New York City’s sexual underbelly and participating in the online dating frenzy of the late 90s were just a small part of my wild rollercoaster ride of what I did not then know was classic manic-depressive cycling. And, no one around me seemed to notice anything out of the ordinary. Even while I lived through devastatingly dangerous depressions, my coterie of family and friends simply found me a pleasant eccentric. But, underneath my charming exterior, I was wracked with immense mental and emotional pain. By age 42, I had attempted suicide three times.
My memoir is ultimately the tale of an unsinkable survivor who still struggles to find her own voice as a writer, lover, sister, friend and daughter.