My gal and I are weekending in Ocean Grove, New Jersey with another lesbian couple who live here. They’ve got a cute little two-story bungalow-style home with a wrap-around font porch and a side deck. It’s close to the water and the weather is very mild. My girlfriend and I took a walk into Main Street at 8am to get a cup of coffee then went down to the water to sit on a bench and drink it.
We watched joggers, dog walkers and random fishermen all go by. We talked of our year past and what might (or might not) lie ahead. My girl is looking for a better job. I, as always, am seeking peace: peace of mind as well as world peace.
Reflecting on the year past and the year to come, I’d say I’ve accomplished quite a bit in the realm of peace of mind. I’ve got my medication regime back on track (and speaking of back, just had my first chiropractic visit to work out some kinks in my neck and back), have developed a nice casual give-and-take schedule with both my psychiatrist and psychologist. I now get all my meds free from the pharmacy and I feel totally in control of my life. We were talking, my girl and I, about something or another on that bench by the water and I made the distinction or pre- and post-conizence: 2006 is when I began taking control. It’s now almost 2012 and I am in complete control.