I’ve been lax is posting these past several months. The daily grind has taken over my life and my existence as a corporate cog is something I despise even while I know others aspire to be able to function at a level that will allow them to work fulltime in the ”normal” world. Except there is nothing normal about American corporate culture—it’s a self-glorifying arena and a self-feeding frenzy of greedy business owners, bullying C-level officers and other troubling bad behavior that goes on from the top down.
I don’t know if I’m out at work about having BP. It’s just so busy there I don’t even think anyone pays attention to anyone else’s personal business. I do know I’m out about my Tourette Syndrome and that I actually came out about it by getting our company involved with the Tourette Syndrome Association, the Small family and this great new documentary Different is the New Normal (http://prn.to/oMtOYp).
This is all a prelude to mention that while I wasn’t looking, World Suicide Prevention Day (http://www.iasp.info/wspd) crept up on me and today, on my 48th birthday, only five years since I stopped my repeated attempts to kill myself, I am more happy than ever. I went out to dinner with my girlfriend last night and we discussed this turn of events. I was just throwing myself a grand 45th birthday party when I met her and all of the attendees at that party were friends of less than two years standing, from my new, healthy life, not my old bad suicidal existence. Now, at 48, I cannot remember why I was in the slough of despond, but I do remember how it felt and I never want to go there again.
Here is some information about where to get help for Bipolar Disorder (http://www.halfofus.com/disorder/Bipolar.aspx). Please do yourself or someone you love a favor by reaching out and asking for help. No one is alone in this stuff…even if you don’t have close friends, or a supportive family, a group of coworkers, or a significant other, there are still people around who want to help. Here are a few more resources:
- American Foundation for Suicide Prevention: http://www.afsp.org
- Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance: http://www.dbsalliance.org
- National Alliance on Mental Illness: http://www.nami.org
- National Tourette Syndrome Association: http://www.tsa-usa.org