what am i supposed to when im paralyzed by fear and exausted by life…
The above was a search term that led someone to this blog. I feel you, out there whomever you are feeling overwhelmed, fearful, paralyzed and exhausted. I’ve been there, many times and try to keep that feeling at bay so I don’t have to experience it very often.
Some of the ways I go about arranging my life so I don’t get to that place are the usual things the “experts” tell individuals with bipolar disorder (and depression, too). That’s stuff like setting and keeping a regular schedule for sleeping, exercising and eating. Also, eating healthy food and not junk. But, I know it’s hard to sleep when you’re feeling really down, let alone paralyzed. And just forget about cooking, that’ usually impossible.
Other ways I stay out of the slough of despond, as one friend refers to paralyzing fear and anxiety, is to stay active, and I don’t mean exercising. I mean having something to occupy my time, and all of it – not just a few hours a day. For example, I am a writer, but I cannot write all day. So, when I am not writing (or doing something else writing/work-related) I will call a friend (and friends are extremely important) or go for a walk or go to some free activity nearby–or even a subway ride away. One thing is–don’t just sleep…sleep breeds more sleep , which fuels depression and exhaustion.
Feeling exhausted by life is a hard place to be, but it’s not the end of life, though it may, for a while, fell like it. I have this story to relate:
A friend who has BP has attempted suicide a few times and has always thought of suicide as a way out of life if things get too rotten. I saw him a while ago and he seemed so much less depressed than usual, more interested in life and actively working toward being content–even happy. He said an ex-girlfriend had recently killed herself. “I always thought suicide was my gig,” he said. Knowing she killed herself and feeling the empty place where she had resided in him made my friend realize that living with constant fear and panic was not the way he was going to finish his life.
I’m not saying there is any easy way to just “snap out” of depression, fear and paralysis. There isn’t. But there are steps one can take to begin climbing out of the abyss and also put in place a “safety net” so not to fall back into the abyss too often.
Hope this helps someone…I also welcome comments and suggestions from readers about how they quell their fears and anxiety.