Choosing suicide over cancer
January 30, 2010 by beautifulwreck
An older friend in Holland was set to take his own life if his diagnosis of metastasized lung cancer was confirmed. Said he’d rather pack up his 74 years and call it a day than suffer through the horrid disease shot through his body.
I reminded him that I am clearly the wrong person to ask since I swallowed hundreds of pills on three separate occasions and am here to live the tale. He did ask, however, if I might find for him the “correct” way to do this thing called suicide so as not to have any snafus and being left half-alive, which is what he wanted to avoid in the first instance.
thinking alternative easy way out if it becomes neccessary – sleeping pills and pain killers ala marylin. but don’t know how much. can you get any info? that would be a tremendous favor considering what cards i have left to play.
saves me a lot of anxiety, heavy pain and sorrow.
if i can get the mix right, at the right moment when i can convince myself that 74 years was a fair run, i can go in peace. (elvis cashed in at 43.)
no stomach for a violent end. – train, roof, car into tree.
can request being put down. you drink two glasses – one puts you out, the other contains a south american jungle poison that paralyses organs.
but that entails a doc coming here waiting for me to do it. and i don’t like the paralysing the organs bit. supposing you feel that? horrible. and i don’t like a doc hanging around waiting.
the easiest by far is doing it myself, but need to get the mixture right. just go to sleep with some content. please try to find out. will at least give me peace of mind to have that knowledge.
meanwhile, we will see what the hangman sez on wednesday.
Anyhow, I heard good news from him last week: he has a small spot on his lung, something that is treatable.