Standing on the precipice of tipping over into a half-century of living, I joyfully look forward to my 51st birthday on September 10th, which also marks World Suicide Prevention Day.
It’s been nine solid years years since I stopped my repeated attempts to kill myself. I am happier now than ever. A young friend is here from Australia via Toronto to celebrate, and, with my girlfriend, prepare a birthday dinner for a fun, private evening.
But, I still can remember when I was in the slough of despond for so many long years. I remember how it was to feel helpless and in dangerous despair. I never want to go there again. The good news is I no longer find myself in the very dark spaces I once occupied. In fact, I feel very distanced from that person who was not-me for 42 years.
More here: World Suicide Prevention Day and Me | Fifty is the New Fifty.
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Another 5-Star review of Beautiful Wreck: Sex, Lies & Suicide:
“I’m not often comfortable when writers delve into their darkness – addictions, depression, suicide attempts – and speak about them so honestly – shining a light into that darkness, so to speak. Something about this author’s matter of factness of description, however, brought me methodically into her world and made the subject matter intense and vivid but never lurid and exploitative. I felt I was accompanied the entire time by a clear eyed survivor who had made it through her own hell and lived to tell the tale. Well worth the read.”
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Hey folks, the extraordinary animated feature ”Rocks in my Pockets” will screen in NYC, September 3–11at the IFC Center. The film is also playing in Boston, LA, and other locations in the US and internationally. Please check the film website to see if it will be in your area (http://www.rocksinmypocketsmovie.com/Screenings.html)
Here’s a review from VARIETY.
Posted in Lies, Sex, Suicide | Tagged animation, artists, films about mental illness, independent film, Sigma Baumane, stigma, women | Leave a Comment »
My girlfriend’s sister jokes about people posting photos of sunrises, it’s banal she says.
I feel very different: every sunrise is a gift and makes me grateful for being alive for yet another day. That’s something my illness tired to take away from me threes times.
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